On a sleepless night from the darkest point in the universe, I sit and gaze upward into the night-time sky. From this unique vantage point the heavens blaze, emitting the energy that fuels the universe. No two suns, no two planets, no two galaxies are the same yet, they harmonize in a majestic, sparkling display. The Master Creator’s living masterpiece is beyond my comprehension but within me burns the compulsion to understand. Such an amazing ambition, coming from a creature so small sitting in darkness and gazing upward! Why? What are human beings (with ant-like insignificance) who by their nature are driven to grasp and own the knowledge lying beyond the capacity of every mortal creature? Does joy come by knowing comprehension or by my heart’s blind acceptance of my place within this wonderful creation? Is it my questioning that grates and destroys God’s natural harmony? Is my humanity diminished if I choose blind faith?
God why have you made me thus? Why have you given me, a creature so insignificant, the ability to question with the desire to own? My questions leave me feeling helpless and alone. My desire for control leads me into rebellion and ends in my personal destruction. I search for someone just like me, who will understand me, and end my lonely search; but I (like all you’ve created) am the only one you’ve made like me. I am hopelessly eccentric and seeking relief in commonality. Again, my questioning eyes turn upward, seeking answers to my “whys” and an end to my unique isolation. Within I am haunted by an echo of belonging to the glorious heavens surrounding and beckoning me. Infinity overwhelms my questioning mind and a small voice from eternity whispers, “My grace is sufficient for you. Trust me. I sent you my Son. Accept Him, follow Him, mirror Him, and find my purpose for you. He is the One through whom, I created all things and in Him I hold all things together. He is the answer to all your questions and the One who will make you shine in harmony with all that lights my creation. He will change your desire for control to trusting content. Faith is not blinded reason. It is the gift I give to guide my dear children, who are too small to understand. Now, open it, use it, and rejoice! Rest in Jesus in the place I created for only you to shine!”
The sun rises and the dark night runs away, as I forget its lonely questioning. I hear the birds’ cacophony of joyful praise! The world revealed in rainbow colors, ever brightening until all shadows fade. Because of night-time’s ink black isolation I have learned to appreciate the sunlight; earth’s unique star, that faithful light which energizes all life, not by chance but by design, is not a sign but a daily miracle that fills my heart with surety. God is in control and though I am the only one, I belong to God. Because of Jesus I celebrate my peculiarity. I shine as only, I can shine and I am sparkling joy!
joyindestructible 
Joy that supersedes all understanding.
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Yes, and even supplants the need for understanding.:0)
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True, very true 🙂
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This a beautiful touching piece that I really enjoyed reason.Thanks for sharing. Chevvy.
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I’m glad it touched you, Chevvy. I think I wore God out with my worrying, why’s so He gave me an answer from beyond understanding.
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Good. I’m glad that you feel at peace. I’m a worrier to, but strangely I feel at piece too.:-)
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Sweet relief when the worry chair stops rocking! :0)
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This a beautiful touching piece that I really enjoyed reason.Thanks for sharing. Chevvy.
Sorry – I enjoyed reading
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If I had your way with words I wouldn’t be discarding so many renderings before posting. “Joy Indestructible” is a joy to read. 🙂
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Awww…thank you. It’s a joy to be able to bless others with my words. I am blessed by your work, also.
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I love looking at the night sky. I can’t wait to be able to visit all that is out there.
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Me too.:0)
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Humble and human. A good post. I’m finding a lot of similarities in what you’ve written here with what I’m writing and have yet to publish. It’s comforting to get that kind of a confirmation.
Thank you, Pam.
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The Holy Spirit does stuff like that. I can’t wait to read it.
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Then God said, “Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.” So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them. Genesis 1:26, 27.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11.
Is it any wonder that we contemplate in the way that we do? Everything is by design, as you’ve expressed. Even as He reached “down” to us in His Son, He has put it in our hearts to reach “up” to Him. We meet Him in the Person of Jesus (Son of God and son of man). All our questions are answered in Jesus Christ.
Thank you for a very expressive post.
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Thank you, Thomas for posting the scriptural backing.:0) Everything expressed by human beings should be filtered through scripture.
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And it only gets better…
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That’s true and I think that future wonder is more than we are capable of imagining…it has to be grown into…:0)
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That is the glory of the word ‘wonder’ isn’t it? We wonder what it’s going to be like and wonder what that wonder will be. Well, it will be truly WONDERFUL! 🙂
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Don’t Let Go by Josh Wilson. and of course my song I Question You come to mind.
Thanks for writing.
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Hmmmm…maybe it was your song that triggered this post.:0) Writing is my compulsion. Thanks for reading!
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