All night long, I walk the vast halls of worry, that deep circular labyrinth within my mind.
This is my vain, desperate attempt to find a way to prevent more pain.
The thoughts kept at bay during the busyness of daylight, band together against me at midnight.
Each breach of faith brings a surge of hot pain from the belly into my throat to startle me wide awake!
Helplessly, I pray and ask God yet again, to take this years-old heartache away…
But somehow and for some reason I can’t comprehend, He’s left that choice in the hands of another.
I search for hope even though those I love most and want to protect seem doomed to disaster.
Trusting God is the only way to escape anxiety’s trap of despair but I can’t pull trust out of thin air!
Father, what I need most I just don’t have! It just isn’t there! It isn’t in me!
Please Father, give me the security I must have to close my eyes in this dreadful world and sleep.
Let your peace over-ride my lucidity; help me look above and beyond the past-current-future threat…
Keep my dear ones safe, change their tumultuous hearts, don’t take them too far from me…
Hear this mother’s worry-prayer, though it be long, often repeated, and worn out…
Father, carry me by your Spirit’s tranquility and free me from midnight’s halls of worry!